Last night was gut wrenching. I don't really like viewings, but they are good for closure. My emotions were already ready to spill over and of course they did when I saw her and embraced her in a hug. I have the day off again, just waiting to see if her and/or her family needs anything. I'm so glad for this because I'm sure I would just be a puddle at work. I ran while I was in California, we were only 1 mile from the beach and ocean. I love the soothing sound and peace that it brings to me. In the middle of my run on Wednesday morning I sat down, and let myself become entranced by the waves. The tears came as I thought about my Grandma and Smiley and I put my hands on my head. I looked up at the clear blue sky and said,
"Please give Smiley the strength to get out of bed every morning. Please, please take his soul and give him peace. And please grant me the strength to be her rock through this time."